kidneys are like planets. you can't really see them, but you know that in order to keep life and certain systems in balance and what not, theyre necessary. The only reason anyone ever notices kidneys is when something is wrong with them. I guess all that ignoring really pissed mine off.
the last few nights have been horrible blurs of agonizing pain, no sleep and late night shows to keep my mind off hurting. my mother, for the second time in a row, discovered me at 4 in the morning writhing in pain. the glorious woman decided to give me some medicine. but not just any medicine. Vicodin.
my experiences with this drug pretty much stemmed from the tv drama House, in which the main character becomes severely addicted to said substance. let me just say...I get it, bro.
it all started with a dull tingling sensation in my left hand. upon inspection I learned that it was perfectly normal looking and went on with slowly sinking into a pain induced delirious stupor. but as the next few minutes went by, this sensation inched its way through the entire left side of my body- dripping into every crevice until it felt like I was growing clouds and baby laughter inside me. this distraction was, at the time, the most hauntingly beautiful thing i had ever felt.
I decided to share my experience with my mother. immediately upon speaking I realized that I was in no condition to do so. I don't remember much of what I said save a few choice sentences.
"moooooommm. stuff is weird."
"I am so...aware..of my skin... mom...I can feel it.."
"my hand is gonna fly off"
though the left side was feeling wonderful and shiny, my right side raged on. i don't know if any of you out there have felt an internal organ throb. like pulsating, pounding. it is really weird. and with every pulse it shoots pain into all corners of the body. by this point i had made my way into a bed instead of the living room floor. i laid on my right side in a desperate attempt for the sweet honey cloud- growing stuff to make its way to the pain. and it did. in short waves of relief starting in my legs and reaching up into my stomach. and i remember the last thing i felt before sleeping for the first time in 2 days was the last area of pain being smothered. and finally, since the beginning of the month i was completely free of this pain.
so all in all. this stuff rocks.
hopefully i can kick the rest of this infection in the face. got an ultrasound today- which is really a mysterious woman in a dark room rubbing you with gel- so we'll see whats up. Utah might have to be pushed back a little. :( pray for me people.
***and p.s., if this is Bradley, I still love you.***
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